I'm stuck in a suburban nightmare and sometimes it's hard for me to live in my dreams. Live in my dreams in a way where i can pursue them, not just wish. Its just hard to take big steps with the way i've been raised and my surroundings. It doesn't mean that my dream is insignificant, not "real", or that i'm not worthy or that don't deserve to achieve my dream. I hate when I feel that way, or when I feel as if i'm being judged that way. It's just hard, everything is. I'm going to be an "adult" soon (18, legal adult) so i'm really trying to pull myself together and be more active and have control and confidence in myself.
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If you have no motivation then I shall attempt to say something to motivate you. For one you can rest assured that we (or at the very least my self) read your blog and would like to read more. Second many people aren't judging other people except ourselves. You are the biggest judge of yourself and as long as think that way you can do anything to make you reach your dreams.
ReplyDeleteI love the first line. I can definitely relate with how you're feeling. Its hard to pursue you're dreams when you have long island dragging you back down. Being from around here makes big dreams sound even more impractical since it's not uncommon for our parents to be doctors or something ridiculously financially practical as that. This isn't Disney. Dreams don't just come true. If you want something, you need to take it.
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